Day 65, and this weekend went by too quickly…

I’m very sorry for not posting the past few days…my stomach has been bothering me something terrible (thinking I might have an ulcer…) and I’ve gone to bed early nearly every night lately. I know I need to get into the doctors to see what’s going on with the stomach pain, so I should probably get that scheduled soon.

Everything else is going really well. I felt like I got a lot done today; I cleaned my room, cleaned the bathroom, and did lots of laundry. It also felt like the day went by way too quickly! This whole weekend did, as a matter of fact. I wish I just had another day to sit around and relax…that would be fantastic.

Food the past few days has been fairly minimal, due to the fact that I’m having this constant acid-y pain in my stomach. Eating helps temporarily alleviate the pain, however, once the pain comes back, it hurts even worse. So, I’m going to have to find foods that are easy on my stomach. I remember the first time I had an ulcer, I believe I was on a pretty bland diet to help avoid the stomach pains. I was also only 10 year old, so maybe I’m not remembering correctly. In any case, I know I need to get to my doctor. I took April 8th off of work (for my birthday!) so maybe I’ll try to make a doctor’s appointment for early in the day.

Well, I hope everyone’s been doing well. It really sounds like everyone is! Here’s to a great week…Cheers!

Jaw-dropper of a day!

Today was one of those days where you are just sitting there with your mouth opened suffering from a bad case of shock and awe.  Yesterday I mentioned on my blog about my emotional eating this past week over my missing brother and today the phone starts ringing off the hook.  I had no idea that my brother’s local paper was going to publish a story on him almost 6 years after he went missing.  Imagine my mother and stepfather’s surprise when they were relaxing on a Sunday morning in sunny Florida, perusing the news in Michigan online, when they see their son slapped on a front page article about missing people!  ZACK MOMENT!

That is the kind of moment that your eyes bug out and your mouth hangs open (or your tongue falls out sideways in Zack’s case).  My mom called me up and I probably looked exactly like Zack except for the fact that I shaved my legs this morning.  No, I didn’t start shoving pizza into my mouth, in fact, just the opposite; I have hardly eaten today.

Well, I thought I would continue the shock value because I came across a picture of myself today and I thought I would require an ER visit; I hardly recognized the woman in the photo.  The picture was taken only a little over 6 years ago and I will have to say that certainly helped me to hit the reset button even during the bizarre events of the day…

Me last Month - 2011


Me at my worst - late 2004

Wow, yep, that just made me hit the reset button for the week.  That girl on the left was absolutely miserable.  She couldn’t walk without needing her inhaler and a trip to the mall was like running a triathlon.  The girl on the left felt defeated and alone.

The girl on the right is learning to love herself and has reclaimed her power.  She is building confidence and self-esteem.  The girl on the left will never again feel defeated and alone.  : )

“It does not matter how slowly you go so long as you do not stop. “

~ Confucius

To my brother Scott William Dusa – missing since 2005.  I am keeping the hope alive, you are not forgotten.