Realization: I DO make a difference.
Sometimes I sit down late at night on my blog and I stay up trying to put my thoughts into words until I am absolutely mind-numb with exhaustion. There are times when I think that perhaps it is ok to skip a day but them somehow skipping one day of writing turns into skipping two and before you know it a whole month has passed. I have discovered a few very important things in this past month of silence.
- Writing keeps me motivated and I enjoy it greatly.
- There are people out there who enjoy my support and I wasn’t aware of the extent…my sincere apologies, thank you for the reminder.
- Most importantly…I can’t do this without YOU. I definitely need support from friends!
I have been working 10-12 hours a day learning the ins and outs of my new position and a whole month has gotten away from me. During the past month old patterns have nibbled their way back into my life and I have shamefully fallen “off the wagon” of healthy eating so to speak. When you leave the house at 6:30am and return around 8:00pm or so, it is hard to think about healthy habits but I really don’t have an option if I am going to lose the remainder of this weight. The truth is, I have gained back at least 5 pounds. : (
Exercise? I haven’t hardly gotten up from my desk in a month…couple that with over 2 1/2 hours in a car for my commute per day and it’s a wonder I haven’t had a pulmonary embolism! The only thing I have exercised is my lips complaining about how I need to start eating healthy again and how much I miss The Juicy Cafe folks keeping me in line.
Time to put a plan back in place and start all over again for the 171st time. The good news is that I am willing to get back up, even though I am embarrassed to put it out there that I have spent the last month pumping fast food into my previously organic only body! Now, of course, ONLY I can be responsible for what I put in to my body but let me tell you right now I DO NOT have support at work. The environment is a male dominated environment of fast-food junkies who eat on the run at their desks. This is like leaving candy on a table where kids are playing and telling them not to touch it. I am a recovering combo pizza addict, you think I would know better! I did have a game plan of packing my own food but that lasted all of a day or so. I don’t have time to even sleep let alone cook my meals but instead of breaking this down by the week, I am going to commit myself to tomorrow only. I need to go back to taking things one day at a time.
Food packed for tomorrow:
- Gluten-free oatmeal for breakfast
- One lean piece of left over steak – don’t judge me here, it is a left-over.
- I will steam some veggies to go with the steak
- Peanut butter for a snack (one tablespoon)
- Large amounts of water (which I have been ignoring since I started working)
Other things that I have learned…I need to find a work/home life balance. I find that I really love to work, so much so that I would continue working way into the evening if it weren’t for the fact that I need to run home and get some rest. The problem with this is that I haven’t left room for much else and there really does need to be balance in there. As always, I am a work in progress.