It is amazing how fast that you can go when you are running away from your problems. This is a personal marathon that doesn’t even require shoes. I call it life’s treadmill – no matter how fast you run, you aren’t really going anywhere. When you step off that treadmill, you are exactly where you started. Like a hamster in a wheel, I continue to go as fast as I can but I simply can’t get away from all that I am running from.
When life tossed me lemons this past year, I just ate them. If you can picture a leaf that a caterpillar has eaten half of, then perhaps you have a clear understanding of how I have made it through the past several months. I have munched my way through every stressful moment like a hungry caterpillar hell-bent on increasing its body mass. The difference is I am not going to get a spectacular set of wings out of the whole deal. The only thing I have gained from my munching bonanza is more weight and a blow to my ego.
I have decided that I am not going to get on a scale. I am not going to choose a “diet” plan. The word “diet” suggests that there is a beginning and an end to a weight-loss plan. My reality is that there can be no beginning and end but rather a change of habit for a lifetime. For me this is really about getting down to the core issues and evaluating the reasons why I turn to food in the middle of crisis. I think that for me it is more than just reaching for a pizza, in difficult times I also turn into a turtle and hide deep within my protective shell. I usually get turned around and when I reappear there is generally a lot of flailing about but I don’t get anywhere…right back on the hamster wheel.
The trick is to landing on your feet and being ok with crawling out of your shell for more than a moment at a time and when you are handed lemons, squirt them on your salad. : )