Day 3 of juicing: Temptations

Weight as of Day One (April 15th): 341.8 lbs

Weight as of today: 335.7 lbs

Weight lost: 6.1 lbs

Total weight lost since March 25th: 19.3 lbs

WOW! Every time I look at those numbers, I get so excited. I’m pretty convinced that juice fasting is the greatest thing that ever happened to me!

Okay, now for today’s progress. I don’t know what the universe is trying to do to me, but today definitely tested me to limits that I couldn’t have ever dreamed of. I’m feeling really great today – lots of energy, mind clearing, and not hardly hungry at all. At work, my supervisor decided to bring donuts to our meeting. The smell actually made me sick to my stomach, and so did the thought of eating one. I was able to get through the meeting alright and without incident. But…

…there was a random pizza party for my department, and it was held RIGHT NEXT TO MY FREAKING DESK. My stomach started feeling horrible as soon as I caught the first smell. I didn’t want to eat it, but I couldn’t escape it. My whole floor smelled like pizza, and I couldn’t leave my cubicle. And, as if THAT wasn’t enough of a fresh hell for me…there are ice cream sundaes afterward.

There is a conspiracy…I’m pretty convinced of it.

Giving in and eating any of it of course wasn’t an option. It wasn’t even a thought. I love the progress I’m already seeing in myself, and I wouldn’t want to ruin it over a few slices of pizza or a scoop of ice cream. In fact, I know that if I were to have eaten it, I’d be so sick and would completely regret it. Why do that when I can drink my juice and have no regrets at all?

*sigh* Aside from that, I did awesome today. I don’t even feel like I’m fasting. It just feels like a normal day, normal hungry…The only thing that isn’t normal is having so much more energy! I’m awake, I’m focused, and I’m happy. Well, except for the above issues about pizza…But otherwise, my attitude is great. I don’t remember the last time I felt like this before!

I have a feeling that if I can make it through today, I can make it through any part of this fast. Today is definitely a day of temptations, and it  was a fantastic accomplishment to have gotten through it. This just keeps getting easier, and I keep getting happier. What’s not to love?

I’ll be posting again with more progress tomorrow. See ya then 🙂



Day two of my juice fast

Well, hello!

So, as I said about two weeks ago, I’m back to the good ol’ weight loss regimen again. It’s felt so great to be back on a good track, and I’m going stronger than I ever have before. Just ask my mom…she’ll tell ya!

To start from the beginning of my latest antics, Sunday I watched a documentary called “Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead”. It was a wonderful movie about how this man changed his life and others by fasting and only drinking fresh fruit and veggie juices for 60 days. He lost around 100lbs and completely gained his life back. I was so inspired! I talked it over with mom, getting her opinion and ideas about fasting, and decided that I would give it a shot. Monday night after work, I visited my local produce stand and stocked up. I researched different websites and made sure I wanted to do this. Yes, I need this.

My morning yesterday started with about 20 oz of fresh juice, containing orange, apple, grapefruit, cucumber, carrots, ginger, and spinach. I drank part of it before work, and the other part when I got to work. I brought along about 36 oz of juice that was more veggie based for my “lunch” to be able to drink to get me through the day. While for the most part everything had gone fine, let me tell you…I was STARVING. I had a headache, my stomach hurt, and I was pretty sure this was the dumbest thing I had ever tried. I was pretty much resolving that I wasn’t going to continue. I got home, juiced right away, and felt a little bit better.

This morning was a completely different story. I woke up surprisingly refreshed, with very little aches and pains. I didn’t think much of it until mom and I were done with our walk and I felt like I could walk for another hour. I was awake and focused…I felt great! By the end of the afternoon at work, my attitude towards juicing had completely changed. My headache was wearing off, my stomach was no longer trying to eat my other organs, and I felt my mind clearing a bit, as if a fog had lifted. It’s a bit after 6pm, and I’m not even hungry. Of course, I still have to juice tonight, but I’m not starving, and I don’t have any urge to eat at all.

I don’t honestly know how long my fast with last. I will for sure do at least 10 days, but whether I go further or not is still undecided. I may go all the way up to 30, but that will be decided later. I’m already seeing results! When I got on the scale Monday, I was 341.2 lbs (I was 355 lbs beginning March 25th), and this morning, I weighed in at 338.6 lbs. HOLY FREAKING WEIGHT LOSS, BATMAN! This detoxing stuff is AWESOME! But, it’s not just about the weight loss. I feel better already…I feel like my body is washing away all the toxins that have built up, giving me a clean slate. And it’s only day two!

I’m really excited to continue with my juice fast, and I can’t wait to see how I feel tomorrow. If you’ve ever fasted before like this, let me know! I’m definitely looking to connect with more people and learn new recipes/ideas.

I need to go juice my dinner, but I hope everyone is doing well! And THANK YOU for the warm “welcome back!” I missed you guys 🙂



Update and Review

On Wednesday Elysia and I headed over to the Paramount Theatre in downtown Seattle to see Jillian Michaels in person for her Maximize Your Life tour.  The tickets were purchased as a birthday gift to Elysia and I had paid what I considered to be a small fortune for VIP seating.  I would like to start off by discussing how disorganized either the show producers were or the Paramount folks themselves but once inside the first set of doors it was a cluster.  The first thing I noticed as Elysia and I waited for the second set of doors to open was a woman in line with an orange wrist band.  Something told me that this was important and so I politely asked her if she was a VIP ticketholder, yes she was, and she went on to give directions to the VIP check-in table.  We chatted for a moment and I told her that no one had made us aware of the check-in procedure and she responded with “They didn’t tell anyone!”  What?!?  Wow, I wasn’t feeling so VIP at that point.  Elysia and I winded our way back through the growing crowd to the check-in table.  The VIP tickets included a take home gift and Elysia and I had wondered if it would be her new book or perhaps a workout DVD and we surmised with anticipation.  Upon check-in we were given an envelope and in that envelope contained the very disappointing take home gift…a 27 minute audio cd of Jillian Michaels hitting some topics that I believe were mentioned at the event.  I say “I believe” because after the first 3-4 minutes I lost interest and didn’t even notice it playing.  I was disappointed to say the least.

The doors opened….

This was my first visit to the Paramount and I am quite surprised that the Maximize Your Life tour was booked here considering Jillian has a large following of overweight individuals. With that being said, I had to be creative in shoving my fat ass behind into a seat seemingly meant for a 12-year-old. Imagine that for 3 1/2 hours! As other VIP ticket holders began to sit down we spread the word to anyone who did not have their little orange paper band that they needed to go check in, they were all grateful for the heads up and they, too, shared that they were never told and how ridiculous that was!  Along comes Jillian who begins her show basically telling everyone that this was nothing we haven’t heard before, she was right.  There was enough humor in the first half to hold my attention but by the second half I found myself dosing off repeatedly.  Elysia sincerely enjoyed the show and that is exactly what the purpose was, however, sadly I have received more motivation out of some of the audiobooks that I have listened to in my car than I did the Maximize Your Life tour.  Jillian is without a doubt an incredible trainer and I am certain that one on one she would be an excellent motivator, I just wasn’t motivated by her on stage.  What I did take home from the event was the reminder to create exit strategies in my life and do what I love…it was good to be reminded of that, even though, as she mentioned, it was nothing new.

So what is new then?

Tomorrow I will have completed 3 weeks of Weight Watchers and I am already down 15.2 lbs. *pats self on back.  I will continue to say that I am very impressed with this ridiculous concept of “points” but the shit program works!  It is a real eye opener when you truly realize what a weight loss portion size is.  The freaking amazing thing about Weight Watchers is that you can eat whatever the hell you want.  The only catch is as long as it is within your allotted points for the day.  What I have worked hard to do is to keep almost all processed foods out of my daily diet.  I have to say though that there is one weight watchers food dessert item that I find myself eating like it is the last food that I will ever consume and that is the Weight Watchers Dark Chocolate Raspberry popsicle.  OMG…I eat these like the owl who is looking for the center of a Tootsie Pop!  Who would have guessed that they are only 2 points!  THANK YOU WEIGHT WATCHERS!

Today Elysia and I watched the movie Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead and let me tell you that was more motivation in life than VIP tickets.  If you are looking for something to change your thinking, this is an excellent option.  In fact, Elysia was so motivated by it that she is beginning a 10 day juice fast tomorrow!  The thing that I am trying to stay motivated with is my job search.  My contract with a large wireless company is ending soon and it is back to the drawing board for me.  I need to find how to market myself with what I love and that is writing!  Yeah, I still have big dreams!




No More Wining

I had the kind of day at work where one of the few things on my mind was coming home and pouring myself a nice glass of merlot, turning on a little jazz and kicking back.  I pulled out my handy-dandy Weight Watchers App and began my quest to see how many points a glass of red wine would be.  Hmmm… 4 points.  I sulked for a moment and then I pilfered through the app trying to find out how much a shot of vodka would be with a nice cold can of diet 7-up….hmmm….4 points.  After cursing Weight Watchers and every vineyard from Washington to Italy for not making a wine worth fewer points, something mind-boggling hit me…I had made the decision that there was no way in hell I was going to sacrifice a food point for liquid fermented grapes.  Well now, that is something new!




Revolution anyBody?

Jillian Michaels, the Body Revolution guru, is Elysia’s idol. Elysia has struggled with her weight her entire life and will be celebrating her 23rd birthday on April 8th –  she views Jillian as an impressive motivator.  That brings me to today’s story…

I was at work and heard my phone download my email messages, I took a peek to see if there was anything life-changing that I needed to know for the day.  I noticed an email from Goldstar which is a service that often times offer impressive discounts for local events. Since I checked it yesterday I wasn’t really interested in checking it again and after a pause, I decided to open it up before deleting it.  There it was, discounted Goldstar member ticket prices to see Jillian Michaels live in Seattle for next Tuesday…ironically…two days after Elysia’s 23rd birthday.  Jillian Michaels in Seattle?  PERFECT! I quickly decided to go to the website to view the discounted seats and that is when I got distracted by the VIP tickets which included “Best seating in house”, a 30 minute Q&A with Jillian after the show, a take away item of to be determined and a 4 week subscription to Jillian’s online program.  ARE YOU KIDDING ME???  I immediately began rumminging through my purse for my debit card with the knowledge that I would be deemed “Best Mom EVER!”.  So much for the discounted $27 balcony seating tickets, however, I am certain what we will gain from the Maximize Your Life Tour will be worth every dime that I spent!

That all brings me to the next story…

When Elysia talked me into Weight Watchers over a week ago, I didn’t want this to be just one more try at something, I wanted this to be THE something I was looking for.  She talked me into Weight Watchers so I talked her into getting up at 4:30 a.m. every morning and going with me to walk our now 4 month old puppy Chloe. It has been one week and Elysia has really committed to this deal just as I have committed to Weight Watchers.  I have already lost 9 pounds and I am thrilled with how I feel. I honestly can say that I have never seen Elysia so motivated and when I told her I landed VIP tickets to see Jillian Michaels, I was indeed dubbed “Best Mom Ever!”.

Life is good.


~Beth (Best Mom Ever)

Okay, okay…Here I am!

So, I was scared to come back to this blog because I was scared people wouldn’t have much to say to me. I’ve started and stopped losing weight so many times that just thinking about it makes my head spin and my stomach hurt.

But, here I am again, trying harder than I ever have (no joke), and just wanting to let you guys know that I’ve never given up! It’s been tough, but I’ve got a good thing going, and right now I am 12.6lbs down from my recent restart. Mom and I are walking every single morning and doing Weight Watchers online. It’s been a great success so far, and I’m actually ENJOYING it – not seeing it as work. Imagine that??

I’ve also set some short term and long term goals that are completely attainable for me. WW sets goals in small increments, and I’m exactly 5lbs away from my first one. MY personal short term goal aside from that is to not go onto Facebook until I lose my first 100lbs. I’m 12.6% of the way there, and getting excited. I even told my youngest brother that I will give him $50 if I cave and go on Facebook. So far, so good!

My long term goal is to be completely physically fit. Not thin, not skinny. FIT. I want a six-pack that guys would be jealous of. I want to be able to do pull ups, sit ups, push ups, all without any problem. I want to feel the burn of my muscles getting stronger, and know that if I ever needed to, I could defend myself. It’s not about being able to wear a bikini, and it’s not about being the skinniest person…I want to be healthy and active. THAT is my long term goal, no matter WHAT the scale says.

Anytime I’m walking and my muscles hurt, I smile because I know that I’m getting stronger already. For the first time in my life, I am seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. I am seeing this as possible, and not just another feeble attempt. I can’t explain it, and I know I sound like a broken record, but I really feel like this is finally the time that I take control and conquer myself and my issues. I have had a constant feeling of happiness and success for the past week and a half since I started, and I don’t feel overwhelmed any more about the amount of weight I have to lose.

So, this is the last time I will have another post about starting over. I’m done starting over. I’m done giving up. I’m done being a disappointment to myself. I’m ready to get going and literally work my ass off. I’m ready to work harder than I ever have in my life. I’m ready to be sore every single morning and being proud that I’ve worked hard  to get there. I’m ready to be the person I’ve always imagined I’d be.

And what a relief it is to know I’m on my way 🙂

Weight Watching

Today I reluctantly joined Weight Watchers Online at my daughter’s request that we “Help support each other.”  I am not a fan of traditional diets and the thought of having to keep track of a set number of pre-assigned points made me curse cringe.  I asked in return that we commit to this for a minimum of 3 months, which I feel should be plenty of time to analyze whether or not counting points is worth the effort.  In addition to joining WW, we also committed to our dog Chloe dragging us walking our 15 week old puppy  Chloe at 4:30 a.m.  I usually get up at 4:45 a.m. so I was sure this wasn’t going to be any great challenge for me…bullshit wrong!  It is amazing what removing an additional 15 minutes of happy sleep time will do to a person on a cool Spring morning.  What I lost in lack of sleep time, I seem to have made up in cups of coffee this morning.

On this journey we have experienced many bumps, detours, stops and crashes along the way but we are still here and still set on finding the right weight4us.